She enters the office and almost immediately begins to cry. “I can’t live like this anymore, it’s impossible to be at home, I don’t have the strength to bear it anymore, I’m very tired.” I wake up in the morning and joyfully run to work, there I forget about my work, and when I leave work, I remember everything and my legs refuse to go home, and my soul becomes black and black. I’d rather go anywhere and with anyone, just not home. He goes on a binge again... When he goes on a binge, my life stops... These days I don’t find a place for myself in the apartment, I feel physically uncomfortable there. It's impossible to relax there. I can’t do the things I love. I’m tense like a spring all the time, I’m waiting... Waiting for him to finish drinking. These days I hate it. Sometimes I hate him so much that I wish him to die as soon as possible. But I immediately bite my tongue and stop myself. I feel terribly guilty about this. That's not possible! I love him, actually. And who gave me the right to wish him death?! I endure it with all my might. But a new wave of hatred is coming soon. Because you just can't imagine how terrible it is. How disgusting he is. So disgusting that I begin to hate him again... and curse him. She cries throughout her story. She cries the entire session. Today she came to cry. Because she feels very sorry for herself. And by the end of the session she asks: “What should I do?” But it is too late to raise this issue. Because at the moment she does not have the task of resolving this issue. Her task is to feel sorry for herself and grieve. And I will be by her side. I will help her experience these feelings, grieve without going into a black hole of helplessness and self-pity, I will help her forgive herself for hatred and curses. I won't rush her. Because she herself already knows what to do with this issue. Many clients carry within themselves ready-made ways to solve their problems. But fear prevents you from seeing these decisions. My task is to help her overcome it. In such things, nothing is done through force, through oneself or through fear.